You had an incling

You had an inkling, you had a feeling,
you had a feeling that it would be the same,
you had clouds, you had clouds in your brain.
You had a dream, but you couldn’t see,
and you wanted to see clearly
but love, a fractured love had interfered with your memory,
and your heart was shattered into pieces,
and the light had gone out in your eyes,
and by love you were no longer mesmerised,
and you were struggling to get yourself back together,
and were permanently changed,
and, heartbreak is a terrible thing,
and how you wished breaking a heart was a sin,
and you wished that going to hell,
was the price that you had to pay,
because you had your heart broken too many times,
and you wanted to be free of such despair,
and you wanted it,
from your mind to be erased,
and you wanted to be in love again,
without the heartbreaks conditioning,
and you wanted to not be so mistrusting,
so, mistrusting ever again,
but sadly, you knew the reality,
and here you were sat at a table,
nervous and anticipating,
and anxious and waiting,
waiting at the table,
with your face aglow in the candlelight,
waiting for someone,
waiting for someone to put a smile upon your face,
waiting for someone to put the light back in your eyes,
waiting to help erase,
the previous heartbreaks pain,
and so, you waited, and you waited,
and then you saw him, and he smiled,
and you smiled and you were anxious,
and your heart was palpitating,
and pounding out the words,
here we go again,
here we go again,
and questioning,
questioning will anything change?